Having a digital camera makes me lazy in my photography. I suppose that’s not really shocking. I take multiple shots of my subject or scene, because I can, when really, I should be more critical and careful about my compositions. My dSLR is the camera I primarily (or right now, exclusively) use when I photograph Raspberry. Obviously, it’s a boon when trying to capture a reasonable shot of a toddler who runs more often than she walks and doesn’t stay still for very long. But, like I said, it makes me lazy — I fire off multiple shots of her in the same scene, because I know that since she’s always moving, more often than not, most of my shots of her will be blurry. It’s a bad habit. When I use my film cameras, whether with Raspberry or any other subject, I take much fewer pictures and I’m much slower to depress the shutter.
I used to save practically all my digital pictures of Raspberry, even the aesthetically and compositionally bad ones. A long time ago, I had the idea that maybe one day I could put together a series of out-of-focus or motion-blurred shots. But that was what feels like eons ago, and now I just shrug at the idea.
Earlier this week, I started sifting through all my photographs since May of last year and deleting the not-very-good photographs or redundant ones (the rest of my photographs — pre-May 2010 — are still on the hard drive that the virus affected in June and other than a few meagre attempts, we haven’t actively tried to recover the lost photographs and files, which I’m certain are still on the drive; it still makes me sad and angry when I think about the hard drive and I prefer to not think about it). This is part of my attempt at cleaning up my digital clutter. There aren’t as many “bad” pictures as I thought there would be. Or maybe there really are as many as I think, except that I’m only working through the folders by months and I don’t notice everything in the recycle bin.
Ideally, I would love to use more film when it comes to photographing Raspberry (or just in my photography in general too), but in lieu of the frenzied child and cost of processing, I’ll have to stick to digital pictures for now. I used to love looking through photo albums of my baby pictures when I was little; Raspberry always wants to look at pictures of herself when I’m on Facebook (pretty much the only repository for many of her pictures at this moment) and I do so wish I had a physical album she could flip through. One day, I hope to get hundreds of her pictures printed and compiled, but that will be at least a little while from now. For now, they’ll just have to remain digital and I want to be more careful and selective about the pictures I take, so I don’t end up with a mountain of crap with scattered gems.Advertisements